Sleeping Away the Cobwebs.

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I've finally figured it out. The greatest secret of all time....want to know what it is?

SLEEP!

Can you believe it?! This is a major discovery for me! You would think at my advanced age of 43, I'd have discovered this sooner, but as it turns out...I'm not that quick. It must be because I'm so tired all the time.

I've always had sleep issues and I can clearly see how sleep has played a crucial role in my life. 99% of the depression I've struggled with over the years can be directly related to my lack of sleep.

When my babies were little...okay, YOUNGER (those of you who know my kids know they've never really been "little"), I often said I was a walking sleep-deprivation study.

I've had years of sleep I've wanted to catch up on and don't think I've missed the irony that after years of wanting nothing but sleep, I'm now physically incapable of getting it! It's too, too cruel. What I mean is that I've lost the ability to sleep in! I know! It's like I've been punk'd!

Since I can no longer sleep past 6:30 a.m., I need to adjust the other way and get to bed earlier. So, my goal this month is a simple one. I'm going to go to bed. Early. My goal is to be in bed by 10:30 p.m. I'm also creating a night time routine to help me sleep.

That's it. My first step to changing my life is to sleep 8 hours a night and see what changes that brings. I'll keep you posted, but right now, I'm tired and my pillow is beckoning. I'm off to bed.

Sleep is the word, is the word, is the word (sung to the tune, "Grease").

Learning to Live With Me

Several years ago, I fell in love with the music of Gary Allan. Gary has a song called, "Learning to Live With Me." These words from this song really touched me:

Is anybody satisfied with who they really are?
You could be the moon
And still be jealous of the stars.
You gotta' learn to swim
If you can't walk upon the sea,
So I'm learning to live with me.

I've been on a journey for the last few years of trying to figure exactly how to live with me. Part of what I'm learning is that there a quite a few things I need to change. I simply don't like who I've become.

I'm also learning that there are quite a few things I do like about me and that are great the way they are. I'm learning to accept, acknowledge and embrace those things.

Mostly, I'm learning that to have a different and better life, I need to make different and better choices.

This blog is about my journey, the things I'm discovering and learning about how to make my life the best it can be...As Gary says, "I'm learning to live, Learning to forgive, I'm learning to Live With Me."